It’s a bit late for reflecting on the past year. But since I don’t have much to do right now and it’s been something on my mind for a couple of months already, what the heck.
Last year has been a trying time for me. Work was getting to me, age… or to be more precise maturity (the lack of it) was getting to me, relationship issues…
It’s gotten to the point that I could say I was really in a state of depression. Losing focus, no drive, negativism, the works… I’m just glad that I didn’t get to the point of losing the drive to live properly.
The point of this blog isn’t to focus on those dark depressing stuff. But rather, on what made me get up and out of that kind of living.
It’s like being in a dark room for a long long time… you start to brood until one day you just get tired of the whole thing. Hey, life isn’t all that bad. The little chink of light that gets in that room starts to become more obvious and you see that the world hasn’t plunged into total darkness after all.
For me, those small chinks of light are all the people that supported me, and listened to me despite all the “negative chi” I was pouring forth. Those people are my family and friends. It may sound a bit cheesy to some. But it really is a great thing to have these people by you in trying times.
My family has been a constant in the many changes I’ve experienced. I can always depend on their love and support for me. Whenever I come home and feel tired, they’ll just let me release all those pent up stress by patiently listening to me. It’s a quiet kind of love and support that’s easily left unnoticed. But, this time, it’s not going to be that way.
Friends have made my past year more livelier and more encouraging. I’m especially thankful to have kept one friend who’s stuck with me since high school life. I always enjoy her company. It feels the most natural thing to hang out and chat with her that it makes all the problems fade and seem like things are getting back to normal.
I think that I’m also blessed that I have office mates that are also good friends. I’ve heard that in other company setting, politics, and ambition can get in the way of good friendship. Where I work, I don’t really get to experience that kind of tension. They also made me experience new things about the world and myself. I’m really happy that even though I find my work a little too challenging, there are people I can rely on to help me out and encourage you. Special mention goes to my JAD mates, and APSG and three other people who should already know who they are if ever they get to read this. (If you three want clues, here it is: A*, P****, K***) It’s a blessing to be surrounded by people who are full of light, energy, intelligence and wisdom, compassion and care. Of course their quirkiness only makes them more adorable to me 
Dependable family, trustworthy old friends. New friends, new inspiration.
It’s great to be here.
